Have you ever felt like life has just 100% thrown the rug out from under you? You feel like the breath has been knocked out of you? Have you ever felt so confused about your life path? Or you’re sitting around wondering what the heck is going to happen next? What should I do? How do I handle this? How can I get through this? We’ve all been there because life just sucks sometimes because the devil is really good at his job… He gets into our innermost thoughts and twists them so we doubt ourselves and God’s plan. He sets the stage up for us to just walk right into it so he can run the show with our emotions. For some, he enhances the depression and the anxiety levels. Sometimes it just sucks. Sometimes it feels like our world is crumbling.
I’ve been there. I’ve been there many, many, many times. There have been times where I was so lonely in life that I was wondering if I was even hearing God or not. There have been times where something would literally just ruin me at the time and I would get furious with God. Life has smacked me so hard sometimes that I’m questioning God. I see my situations and even the most detrimental points of my life as pretty rough stuff where God sees it as a time of growth. God is sad to see us go through rough spots in life. He never wanted sin on earth. He doesn’t want to see His children upset, but He does let things happen to us because He knows it will push us to new heights that we would have never thought possible. In return, this growth hopefully will be turned around to us glorifying Him because of the journey, His grace, and love.
Rough times always happen to everyone. It sucks. No one wants bad things to happen, but they’re necessary. No, I didn’t want my grandpa to pass away. No, I didn’t want my “uncle” to be killed. No, I didn’t want to get shunned by a church family. No, I didn’t want to get hurt emotionally, and physically by guys before. From the most drastic things down to the smallest annoyances of life, I don’t want crappy things to happen to me, but I know that if those events weren’t apart of my life story I don’t know where I would be today. God knew what He was doing during those times. After all was said and done, he sent me blessings along the way. He carried me through all of it, and he always will carry it.
One of the biggest, “when life kicks you in the face” moments for me, was watching my beloved great-grandma (Nanny) pass away on her deathbed when I was only 12. I remember being in the room with my grandma (Nanny’s daughter) and Nanny. It was just another day that we were visiting her in the hospital. My grandma and I were sitting working on my math homework then for some reason I felt compelled to look up at Nanny. Apparently, she had been looking and smiling at me for some time. That one moment was one of the most vivid memories I have. As Nanny and I looked at each other she was smiling the biggest smile anyone had ever seen. It was as if she was glowing. In that exchange, later on, I knew it was her saying goodbye. Immediately after that beautiful moment is when everything came to an end. Nanny started getting sick, so my grandma came over to help her. Then the seizing began. Then her eyes rolled in the back of her head. My grandma was screaming for the nurses to come in and help. Nurses and doctors flooded the room within seconds. They were scrambling as fast as they could to revive her and make the heart attack stop. They kept yelling, “Get the kid out of the room! Get the kid out of the room!” Someone had pushed me out, and all I see then is a large brown door slammed in my face. It was 10:17am. I’m waiting in the hall frazzled, confused, scared beyond belief. One nurse comes out, she gives me “that look.” Another comes, and then another. Till finally there was silence that fell over the hall. 10:27am comes, it was the longest 10 minutes of my life. My grandma comes out of the room, I run to her, and she falls to her knees as we hug and start crying uncontrollably. This was my moment of when life was just flat out miserable. That morning changed my life forever not only because it was traumatizing, but God used it for good. Nanny’s passing got me asking questions about where is she going? Can I see her again? How do I get there? Within the next few months, I accepted Jesus as my Saviour. My salvation decision became a reality because God took a horrendous moment and turned it into something beautiful.
When your new job ended up being harder than you thought, you don’t know where you want to go with your career, your depression haunts you again, you’re having family issues, down to the most insane pivotal life moments, it all adds up to God has got this. Ya, it’s easy for me to say it when I don’t personally have any of those things going on with me right now, but we need to hear that the most for when we are going through those ruts. For all the people reading, take your crappy life moments right now and SURRENDER it to the Father!! He wants ALL of you. He wants EVERYTHING. He wants your every thought, all your emotions, all your baggage. He wants ALL of you. How cool would it be to instead of when life kicks you in the face, you kick SATAN in the face because YOU have the ALMIGHTY GOD on your side. You have the Spirit within you to fight this battle that you’re going through. God will carry you in the valleys all the way up to the mountain tops. Don’t forget the rut you’re in right now, Jesus will turn it into a BLESSING. Today, go out and YOU kick life in the face for the glory of God!!
We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguiseWe pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we’d have faith to believe
When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not our homeWhat if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise-Laura Story